Sunday, February 26, 2017


I have had these experiences; two prior to psychoactive chemicals. The first two are part of the warp and weave of who I am.

Have studied these experiences across time and place to try to understand. They are ineffable and attempts to explain them are filter through culture, time and life experience. I have written this in another piece I have done:

SPECULATION ON FINDING UNITY (the ‘oceanic’ or ‘one with the univese’ experience.

The brain has a stimulus range. It is the experiences outside this range that are the pathways to the white light. The existence of a stimulation range can be seen various ways the shifts occur.

One path is the through meditation or fasting or sensory deprivation or depression. This is the “too little” end of the range. The brain needs a level of stimulation to keep it from “eating on itself”. When low input of stimulation opens the underlying processes to accessibility.

When the brain receives too much stimulation in the form of whirling dervish dancing or continual sexual stimulation or psychoactive drugs or depression then it overloads and lets go of its control. Here the epiphany explodes into experience.

Notice I have put depression in both the low and the high input. There is the depression that is the “dark night of the soul” where existence shrinks to a point of nonexistence. There is also a depression that it is an overwhelming brain chatter. Both of these occur under perceived duress and with the loss of the ability to use earlier adaptations successfully to manage the duress.

Each person’s range is unique to them as well as to their experience at the particular time. The experience of the shift can be a conscious quest or an involuntary eruption bypassing the controls of the existent worldview.


Empires collapse, cultures dissolve and history repeats its self. 
Here is an interesting quote I found years ago:
One of the early Church Fathers, Tertullian (c. A.D. 160 - 240), commented on the effects of human enterprise on the earth: “Farms have replaced wastelands, cultivated land has subdued the forests, cattle have put to flight the wild beast, barren lands have become fertile, rocks have become soil, swamps have been drained, and the number of cities exceeds the number of poor huts found in former times . . . Everywhere there are people, communities - everywhere there is human life!”  To such a point that “the world is full.  The elements scarcely suffice us.  Our needs press . . .  Pestilence, famine, wars, [earthquakes] are intended, indeed, as remedies, as prunings, against the growth of the human race.” (Gies, Frances and Gies, Joseph.  1994.  Cathederal, Forge, and Waterwheel.  Harper Collins.  N.Y. p. 6.)
The above from: SUPERMAN PLAYS WITH KRYPTONITE DICE (an essay written around 1998)

It is true there seems to be a life cycle to empires and many scholars have written about it. 
This time it is significantly different.  It is global.  There are so many multishaped balls in the air right now (warming, ocean acidification, depletion of vital resources, water, air, soil, economic bubbles, to name some obvious ones) it is difficult to tell which one or ones will over stay the welcome in the system and make a mess of things. 

There are those who understand the bubbling of economics and the shrinking pie.  Some are fired up over the diminishing returns of oil or of other resources.  The rising ocean or its lowering ph level concerns some.  Some feel the heat or watch the tumultuous storms.  Of course, there is the cry of too many, too many.  And the gritty loss of dirt as a concern.   And some will say but you forgot .  .  .  .  .  .  .
And there are of course polydoomers, juggling so many ifs. 
There are the polydeniers too, they have so much compartmentalized there is rictus about their smile.
When is it happening?  Now grindingly, and tomorrow? Tomorrow perhaps immediately - it won't be pretty no matter.

And it is necessary.